I know you probably don't know or care...

but you were everything to me, and you made me the happiest person in the world, and for that short period of time, my life felt like it had some kind of meaning. I want to thank you for everything you did, and even though you have her now, and you are apparently very happy with her, you should still know that no matter what, you'll always be the first person that has ever made me feel alive.

You had a beauty so extraordinary that you didn't show to your friends because you were "embarrassed." Well, maybe if you had you would've been much happier. It doesn't matter that much to me though, because I got to see the real you. The person I fell in love with isn't the same person that I see in pictures with the person who stole the last thing that meant anything from me.

I know that everything worked out differently than how I would've wanted it to in the end, but I also know that you know I never wanted you to go, I never wanted to leave your side either, and even though it wasn't the longest relationship ever, you still gave me the best summer of my life. Thank you for that.

I do miss you and everything you brought to my life. That kind of happiness & love should live forever, but I can't keep pretending to believe that I'll ever feel that good again, because in the end I know that everything has a point where it has to stop. You really did help me, but now it's actually tearing me apart to the point where I just cant take it anymore. I'm extremely close to my breaking point.

See, the truth is, once you left, I met someone else, someone perfect for me.. but as usual, I'm skeptical about it, I'm not sure if it will work out, but I hope it does, because it doesn't seem fair to me that you are not only able to move on, but you also have someone "perfect" for you. Yes, I'm jealous, but there's nothing I can do about that.

Right now you're sitting in your living room, with all of your wonderful friends, and the girl you have given everything to, while the girl you once claimed you loved is sitting on her bed wondering why she's not in your arms right now. Every night, I relive the day you asked me to be yours, in my dreams. They haunt me. Just like your eyes haunt me every time I blink.

I remember the taste of your lips, and your hands that rested on my hips. The way you held me as if you never wanted to let go, and then I snap my brain out of the dark abyss that is my broken heart, and stop myself from thinking about you too long because if I do, I'll end up hurting myself again, and I know that's not something you ever wanted me to do.

I need to let go of you. I need to open my eyes, and see that you're with her now, and I need to keep moving, keep telling myself that I'm going to meet that one person that makes me feel even BETTER than you did.

I need to keep going.

Letting go isn't the easiest thing to do, but I guess it's because of you that I will know how to do it, and even though the pain you inflicted hurt me so bad that I was going to end it all, you should know that I'm not mad at you. and I'm glad that we were even together in the first place despite everything that happened. I guess I just want to let you know... I do not want you back,and I will never take you back again, because doing that ruined my life in the first place.